Jack is happy about 2 things....

He is happy about his toes. 24/7 he is grabbing on them, talking to them, playing with them.

AND

He is happy that it is Nina's birthday!!!

TGIF!!

Jack's Full Time Mom

As you know the past few months, although the best of my life with my new family, have also been the most trying. The pain that I felt in regards to leaving Jack in Daycare began to consume me and it flooded out on everyone that I encountered. After many tears, fights, number crunching, and tons of pros and cons lists Nick and I decided that right now, despite all the odds, the best thing for our family was for me to stay at home with Jack this first year and things would fall in to place somehow. Resigning so close to the start of school from the place where it all started here in Dallas was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Matthew (my Principal) and my team were so supportive which made leaving that much harder. Often after signing the paperwork I worried that we made the wrong decision. That was until today when I dropped Jack off at Daycare so that I could pack up my room, I (a complete stranger), watched a little girl take her first steps. At that moment I knew in my heart that no matter what happens......at least it will be one of his parents that is with him when he makes those monumental first steps or says his first word....not a stranger from Daycare. Tomorrow we head to Mom and Me then I am heading back to MST to try to finish up packing in the non air conditioned building. Boy do I have too much stuff- Garage Sale and Amazon already sounds like a great way to pull in some extra cash. On top of that I plan to network all year to see what we can come up with in hopes that something will come along allowing me more time with Jack...but right now I want to relish in my excitement. Thank you to all of you that listened, offered your thoughts and support, and gave great hugs to help Nick, Jack, and I get through this. You are truly all angels.

Bumper

So Jack went down around 9:30 last night and fussed a few times throughout the night. All it took to get him back down was placing our hands on his chest and making the Shhhhh sound. Well around 4:30 this morning he was at it again but the sound was more like a whining talking nonsense. Nick and I both groaned and were calculating who's turn it was to get up to go tend to him. Nick won and while walking out the room was damning the fact that the work alarm was going to be going off all to soon. When he gets to Jack's room I hear...."Don't worry Jack...Dad will get it out." I go running to find Jack as Nick had with one leg (swaddled mind you) stuck in between the bars of the bed. We had taken off that one bumper because even swaddled in the sleep postitioner Jack seemed to migrate towards it in the middle of the night. Scared that he would suffocate we took it out....looks like it will be going back in and we'll trust that the Angel Care Motion Monitor would alert us if his face was too close to the bumper. The story's ending worked out well for Jack...special visitors and attention at 4:30 in the morning, Mom fed him, and he got to finish out the night in the big kid bed :)

Nick took Jack to dayare for another trial run this morning...I'm couting the minutes til I can break him out of Dayhell and am curious to see how Nick's reaction to dropping him off in reality is vs. what he thought previously.